i noe tat certain thing no matter how u change will oso be the same... for example, a rotten apple juz lyk me is always a rotten apple... ppl will always choose the better apple rather den the rotten apple, no matter how u change it will never become a perfect apple after all. nothing is so good bout me... no matter how hard i work in the end the result will still be the same... maybe wat my new buddy said to me is true, u are not a good looking guy after all, the girl tat u reali like see you may run away or maybe they will not be frend wit u... i'm suck ok... i'm not any better after all... maybe i'm forever a rotten apple tat no one will care at all... i'm reali not worth for u to love or to care for me after all... =(

maybe tat is my fate no one can change it...