yesterdae go to lam dai find my frend den we go meet my another bro at jp... n my frend comes we go jp walk walk n shop n my frend bought a zinc bag... after tat my another oso coming to join us, me n my frend go eat mac... after tat slack awhile... den go star factory to play game... 9plus go watch movie, stupid movie make me giddy n feel lyk vomiting... after tat ok liao... finish movie go slack den go back hm liao...

haiz... reali feeling so down tis few daes... n i reali dun noe wat to do next? hmmm, reali hope tat i can be lyk last tym, but i noe it's is impossible... it will not happened... i noe no matter how much i care for u, will never touched ur heart. but i noe, ur heart still hav him n reali not easy to let go of it... u will still care for him, am i right? all i can do is to stand aside doing nth at all... maybe i noe i'm not so important to u ba... haiz... =(

yesterdae go celebrate my bro birthdae, den we go jurong point meet them n wait for my other frend to come fetch us to parkland n we go for dinner... after dinner we slack awhile n decided where to go? my other bro go back wit his gf. n we decided to go power hse to club... order 2 jar of voka n den we go dance after tat follow my frend go smoke... den we feel thirsty n we buy 1 jar of ribenna voka n we share, after tat my frend go buy a jar beer n we share together den we go back to dance floor to dance. happie dancing n enjoy e music, felt a bit tired den me n my frend go smoke, den go slack first den start to dance un til 4.30am my frend go buy a jar of beer me n my frend go buy a glass of green tea. see ppl dance for awhile den finally ended... we go out to slack n me my frend need to go hm n ask my frend e frend to fetch us go hm... me reach hm at bout 5.30am. slept for 30 min wake up go to work aready, afternoon slept in ops room for awhile... finally 8.00pm liao go hm rest...

It's not easy to gain a trust frm ur friends... maybe u still dun trust me so much yet. i understand...

i noe tat certain thing no matter how u change will oso be the same... for example, a rotten apple juz lyk me is always a rotten apple... ppl will always choose the better apple rather den the rotten apple, no matter how u change it will never become a perfect apple after all. nothing is so good bout me... no matter how hard i work in the end the result will still be the same... maybe wat my new buddy said to me is true, u are not a good looking guy after all, the girl tat u reali like see you may run away or maybe they will not be frend wit u... i'm suck ok... i'm not any better after all... maybe i'm forever a rotten apple tat no one will care at all... i'm reali not worth for u to love or to care for me after all... =(

maybe tat is my fate no one can change it...

Yesterdae work was damn boring... but time flies fast... den after work go to suntec to find my brothers, n we eat at pizza hut e food was quite ok... Happie birthdae bro... after finish eating went to slack after tat my frend was not feeling well n he left together wit my bro... den we say goodbye to each other. so sad canot go clubbing together, but in e end me n my other bro go clubbing n we jio our veri best frend to go... we take bus to vivo city n wait for our frend to come, he came so late,but nvm we go together to power house e Q was so long... but quite fast oso, my frend go n apply for member... den we go in to club happie... but three of my frend outside, muz wait for them so long. somemore outside still got ppl fighting stupid sia... waste time... den we go buy 2 jar of voka, me not feeling well oso juz drink... den we go dance le... happie sio... enjoy ourself... dance until morning 3.45am my frend go find tables n he buy 1 bottle of liquors.. until closing we go back hm liao...

a few dae never write blog liao, coz i was falling sick... now back to write le... actually now i hav nth to say at all... coz i was falling sick veri seriously n did'nt hav any wei kou to eat. lucky now i feeling much much better liao... got to take good care of myself...

everything seem to be happened on me...

haiz, everything seem to be happened on me everytym... reali hav no mood... everydae oso e same... hate my team mate, if u dare or hav guts dun talk behind my back, come talk to me... feel lyk a knife stabbing at my back. me now veri fan ar... maybe tml e dae oso e same... moodless... =(

I reali did not noe wat to do now... i'm reali veri veri sad ok, watever thing tat i do now oso i dun feel lyk doing it. i reali dun noe wat to do next? i hav lost my confidence n reali dun hav e courage to tell u tat i reali like u... i hav keeping tis word in my heart for a long time... will anyone noe how i feel? the ans is no one will noe how i was feeling rite now, i reali can't be happie anymore wat i used to be lyk last time. maybe i not worth for ppl to care for me... everything tat i do will never make me happie forever... maybe tis is how my life will be going on in e future ba... everything oso did'nt goes well to me... maybe i'm not a better guy after all ba.

Life is reali suck... =(

Todae was reali fuck up ok... i hate one of my team mate veri fuck up wan showing me attitude problem . I was quite angry aready ok... dun come n find trouble wit me asshole... den go patrol wit my another team mate n i reali never talk to him... Sorry my frend, it not tat i dun wan to talk to u, i was reali veri sad n unhappie, juz wan to be alone... =( everything did'nt go well to me at all... so veri sorry... me reali hav a fucking life...

yesterdae came back frm work... rest until afternoon den go nan dai find my brothers, reach dere at around 2.30pm meet them n den talk talk... after me n my brothers meet my another brother at blk void deck. den we take bus to jurong point n heading towards vivo. me totally not in a mood n totally sad, didn't talk wit them. reach vivo den we go hawker center makan, after we makan go slack awhile. den we go harbourfront shopping n we go to baby changing room

taking photo coz e mirror quite big.

my pic not so nice... me totally veri sad n no moods to take pic...

den we go to vivo wanted to watch movie but e seat all full, den we meet some of our girl friend an old classmate. we go up to e top to slack n go arcade play game... n i walk out frm arcade i stand aside alone feeling so sad n no mood... everything tat i do now will not make me happie at all forver... haiz... den go wit my brothers to e pet shop see cat n dog cut hair. after tat slack for a while, i watching e sky so nice at nitez n saw only 1 star on e sky. we so hungry den go eat long john silver. my frend they all talk talk i was so quiet eating my combo 1 me dun hav any wei kou to eat... after tat we planning to go hm liao, den my frend ask we all wan to go halo bar anot. we reply dun noe, after tat we decide to go, den take train towards clementi n transfer bus alighted at ngee ann poly den we walk in to ngee ann poly to halo bar... e road of e slope so long sia. we finally reach blk 75. den we go in to take a seat my frend order a jar of beer, me n my frend play pool... den after a while long we go back to together, take cab go back hm. reach hm 2.45am... finish shower den go to zzz...